"Things and Thangs"

I am a firm believer in "it all happens for a reason". however, it seems like we are going through a rut right now. i was thinking to myself today, "why is this all happening to us"? And i SWEAR God spoke to me.

i have nothing to complain about. yes, my back hurts day in and day out. yes, i want a bigger house, bigger yard. yes, i want another dog to call my own. yes, i want a new car (not wrecked preferably), YES, i WANT a pair of jimmy choos, Yes, i want these "things". and although i WANT all these things, i also want...

i want a healthy family. i want my sisters/brothers, my life, to be happy and healthy. i want my husband to finish his degree in exactly what he wants to finish in. i want my nieces (Alyssa, Anniston, Ayden Claire, Rileigh, Grace and Haven) to always be well and know that i am here for them. i want my boys (Cooper and Brady) in Conway, Arkansas to know that i WILL be at their highschool graduation. i want my friends to know that they are family to me. i want my dad and mom to know that i appreciate them. i want the people that i work with to know that i need every single one of them and that they are the strength that holds me together. i want so many things. and i have figured out...you just have to decide which "things" are MOST important.

im stressed right now dealing with house inspectors, insurance companies and a broken computer. but, i realize how lucky i am. i have wonderful inlaws, amazing grandparents, aunts that i hope to be half as good as, friends that would die for me and drive miles and miles to be there for me, dogs that love me even if i forget to take them to the park on Sundays and MOSTLY... a husband that respects me and knows that i am his best friend through thick and thin. i am only whole because of josh fay. he has made me who i have always wanted to be. he has has had faith in me that i have never seen in myslef. not only is he a man of great things, he is a man of God. i am soooooo lucky to have these things in my life, others would die for.

i have never known such a "sistership" that i know with my own sisters. if i could not talk to them tomorrow, something would be very wrong. and today, i can talk to them and everything is okay. i do not know anyone as close as we are, they are my heart. they are the people that i look up to. when i am with them, i know that i am in the right spot, exactly where i am supposed to be. i am forever grateful for them.

i am obviously being taken care of with the people in my life. i have deceided to let the small things pass, let the worries disappear, and let the most IMPORTANT things in life lead the way.

so, now that i have gotten all my feelings out- i feel much better. thanks for reading! until next time...<3